Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Time to remember

Seems fitting to discuss 'remembering' on a blog about the fight about Alzheimer's. This blog was created to chronicle the time spent caring for my grandma, so I wouldn't forget anything. It was going to be a place to look back, when I needed to. Life happened though. I became so busy caring for my grandma in the end, that at the end of the day I was emotionally, and physically spent. That is why the last three months of her life are omitted on what was supposed to be a daily journal.

After my grandmas death, I couldn't bring myself to write about it, because I had just lived it. Lived the raw unceasing pain of seeing the person you love loose a hard fought battle. I was ok with this, after all it's not like I could, or would ever forget.... Only, that isn't true. I find myself somedays, trying to recall the events in those last days, and become frustrated that some memories seemed to have slipped away.

So, as the two year anniversary of her death approaches, I plan on writing. Catching up, on the memories I have of those final days. I'm not sure anyone even reads this blog, but if you do, and you were waiting for the 'rest' of her story, it is coming.